First off, I am happy to say that I am feeling 99% better.
The worst part of the stroke is how it affected me mentally. I have never been a worrier and I have never dealt much with anxiety but for several weeks after the stroke…I was truly living in fear. It was not fun, it was not me, and I did not like it…not one bit. I don’t know how many of you have ever had anxiety and fear to over take you but if you have…I now have an understanding of how horrible that can be. I can honestly say that God took the fear and anxiety from me. At church 2 weeks ago…I took Chris by the hand and asked him to go down to the alter with me so that we could pray about what I had been going thru. We knelt at the alter and I just began to unload it all there. My Pastor and other prayer warriors prayed over me and I knew that God was doing a great work in my mind and over my whole body. I truly feel it is such a miracle that I am alive and well.
God had his hand on me during the stroke and he has his hand on me now.
I had many people tell me that I needed to probably take something for my anxiety….I relied on God first..and he healed me! There are days that when I feel a residual effect, my mind immediately wants to panic like
“oh no…what was that…what is happening” and then I quickly take those thoughts captive and remind myself…God is in Control, I am in his hands…and he has already healed me… then I feel his sweet peace and everything is OK!
If any of you are going thru fear and anxiety I pray that you will just ask God for your healing and that you will allow him to take those spirits from you.
2 Timothy 1:7...
For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.
3 comments:
great post lady! so glad to hear you're feeling better.
i used to be a worry wart. i worried about everything, but mainly the healthy of my boys. i used to play the what-if game too.
one day at church, the pastor did his sermon on worry. uh hello, talking straight to me! that was all god, ya know? :)
in a nutshell, he said that christians worrying is an offense to god. now think about that. WOW!! wake up call. i needed to hear that. i know everything is in god's hands, i have to truly believe that in order to set myself free from guilt.
I'm SO glad you are feeling better!!! I can only imagine the fear and anxiety that would result from going through what you went through...thanks so much for sharing everything you're going through...you are SO strong!!!
I am so glad you are doing better!! We do have an amazing God!
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